No online forgiveness for me

So a while back I was blogging on the conservative christian website (like Baptist conservative okay like southern baptist conservative). I enjoyed it and it was fun because I spiced up conversations. And I learned from other people. Most recently I blogged about why feminism has such a bad rap in the church. Wow. Did I ever get responses, now it 13 pages and counting, more than almost any other blog topic I have seen. Lots of lively conversation going back and forth. Oh, but I forget to mention I got kicked off the blog? Yep. I was blogging on a different topic (church and state or socialism or abortion or something) and this person was being really mean, so I made this kinda snide comment about Kool-Aid, you know implying that he had been drinking too much Kool-Aid or why would he have such a stupid opinion? I didn't actually say stupid, anyway. So I got kicked off and have not been able to respond to the feminism blog, which is sad because its really interesting. So I thought I would comment on my blog as the urge to write was unrelenting.  What strikes me the most is the heated debates I see on the issue of feminism, and really it gets down to the "Mommy wars". So you have the working moms and the SAHM's. And they just went back and forth back and forth, it was like being at the Wimbledon or something.  And they all rationalized their opinions using the Bible so eloquently. But constantly jabbing at each other the whole time. Like, one would say, I believe in equality but feel no need to fill a man's role or take over a man's place. Oh classic. Or, a woman's place in the home is seperate but equal to a man's place in the workforce. Okay the concept made was seperate but equal maybe not in that exact words, yeah that one really disturbed me. I was like, deja vu, seperate but equal, haven't we heard this before somewhere? Wait, wait, its coming to me! AH yes, Brown v, Board of Education! Yeah......

     Okay so overall you can probably guess where my heart was. But in all fairness I really thought the SAHM's were a bit more nasty about it all than the working moms (well with one exception, and no not me, I didnt get kicked off this post, remember?) It was like they had a chip on their shoulder or something and had to prove it all or something. Okay whatever I just posed the question you don't have to go off, you know? 

     Now, I used to think being a SAHM was like, the inner circle of hell or something (Dante's inferno which is rather difficult to read but you always sound so educated if you reference it, right, ahhh Milton but whatever he's so much better than Faulkner, I digress.) But now I think its not really the end of the world, their probably about the same. Maybe you make a little more money working, maybe not depends on your job. Maybe its better long-term to secure the retirement or secure the job for when your kid is older or whatever.  Maybe you are more suicidal if you are a working mom, maybe you go more schizophrenic if you are a SAHM (I could see being delusional or developing multiple Disney personalities at the very least). So, who cares, really? It all kinda works out in the wash right? Well I think it would. Maybe because I would only stay at home a year if I stayed at home and I am only having one kid to stay at home any length of time for. Now I think this is the perfect solution. Have one kid stay at home a year or two, no big deal. Move on make money socialize the little tyke at day-care, whatever.  Im not losing sleep over this. Maybe if I had two I would but oh dear God why would you want two children? One is the loneliest number, well no er wait a minute. No one is the COOLEST number that you've ever seen totally. 

    Its amazing how shocked and appalled people are that Im only having one and getting everything severed afterwards. Like I will change my mind or something. I dont really change my mind much, well only about food. Maybe some other minor aspects of life.  But not the major things. Now I decided a long time ago I wanted: Doc martens, a tatoo, to dye my hair blue, and get three holes in my ears, Im still working on all that, I never changed my mind. Those things I have wanted since I was 13.  I wanted to marry my husband at about 18 and I never changed my mind about him being the one for me. So no I will not change my mind. 

   So the mommy war crap, whatever. I guess to be polite as a woman you have to pretend to care about these things I will learn to be polite. I will learn to be like, oh no of course I don't let my 1 year old watch tv, or I would never dream of exposing him to rap music at an early age (of course I intend to teach him how to rap using 90's karoake). I would never put a NOW t-shirt on my toddler? Hey if anyone wants to send me a gift, a baby feminist shirt would be awesome for a boy or girl, gotta start early, right?  I will be like, I never swear! And, like, I never drink anymore! And, he goes to bed at 7 every night! And smile, and nod. Hehe. Well, anyway. I don't think all liars go to hell, well maybe they do. Hmmm. Maybe I will just smile and not say anything hehe. And did you see that new movie thats out now? You know the with lots of action, like Rambo 5? Oh of course my kid didn't see Rambo 5, oh damn. I'm going down... oh well...